Sebuah Kebanggaan

Kalo bicara tentang 'kebanggaan', kebanggaan tentang apa? Yang pasti tentang achievement kita, tentang sesuatu yang kita miliki, tentang perubahan baik kita, tentang pengakuan orang ke kita... macem2 pokoknya. Kemudian apa 'result' dari kebanggan yang kita punya? Macem2 juga. Tergantung sifat dasar orangnya masing2, gue rasa. Ada yang menjadikan kebanggaan itu jadi suatu motivasi untuk gets better time to time, ada yang menyimpan kebanggaan itu cukup dalam hati, ada yang seneng ngomongin kebanggaan dia itu, ada yang kegirangan, ada juga yang jadi arogan.
Bicara tentang kebanggaan yang menimbulkan arogansi, terus terang jaman dahulu kala, gue pun sempet mengalami fase itu. Di kala gue masih muda banget, karir gue cukup menanjak, arogansi gue sempet keluar dengan gak sopannya. Betapa gue inget gue sering men-under estimate orang laen, dengan bangganya ngeluar2in kartu nama gue ke orang-orang dengan emang niatan pamer, betapa gue ngerasa gue udah kepinteran sehingga di bbrp waktu gue menolak untuk belajar lebih, jarang berkaca (bukan ngaca dandan lho), milih-milih temen dll-dll. Aduh, jijay pokoknya.
Padahal pada saat itu gue gak nyadar, kenapa gue bisa sampe di posisi tersebut sebenarnya? Sebenernya karena karir gue sangat dibantu oleh bos gue waktu itu yang, terus terang, cukup subjektif. I was his golden child. Maybe if I wasn't his golden child, karir gue biasa aja. Lha wong pengetahuan gue juga masih kurang banget, masih bodo koq.
Eniwei, the goodness of time (minjem istilahnya LV) bikin gue nyadar kemudian. Buat apa sebenernya arogansi gak penting itu? Apa artinya jabatan? Apa artinya prestasi kalo kita gak ngeliat esensi sebenarnya?
Sekarang gue kerja di suatu agency lokal yang mungkin gak segengsi multi-national agencies tempat gue bbrp kali bercokol. Kantor ini yang bikin gue sadar sesadar2nya. Gimana banyaknya pengetahuan maupun pengalaman yang gue blom punya. Beberapa bulan disini jauh lebih menghasilkan what we actually call 'improvement of knowledge & skills' dibandingkan dengan 5 tahun gue kerja di tempat2 sebelumnya. Betapa nggak berhaknya gue bangga sampe jadi sombong dulu itu... Masih ada langit di atas langit juga, mak, malu...
Sekarang, kadang2 gue juga msh kerasa kalo lg bangga tentang sesuatu di pekerjaan gue. Tapi Insha Allah gue akan menyikapinya dengan lebih baik. Gue akan menjadikan rasa bangga itu suatu motivasi untuk jadi orang yang lebih baik. Dalam menyikapinya, gue akan selalu ngeliat ke atas, dimana masih buaannyyaakkk orang yang jauh-jauh lebih pinter, jauuh lebih bijak, jauuhh lebih jago dll-dll.

Tapi satu rasa bangga yang gak kelar-kelar gue rasain sebenernya: Aduuuhhh... bangga jadi istri & jadi ibu! *kalo yang ini boleh dong :D*

Dedicated to all my proud friends.

About So-Called Friendship

LV writes, quite sad... but they are unfortunately true. Hope this writing could inspire us... Our poor-quality friendship.

Friends R'nt real; They're Juz a State of Mind
The goodness of time has shown me which can be fake and which ones can be real. For long period of time we human subconsciously always expect mere devotion and loyalty from the people we care about from people we believe that they are Friends. We started to entitle them the position 'Friends' when we got along pretty well, when we saw lots common grounds, when we had similar interests, all those good things called similar, same and common things. We then forget that it's not the limit of a friendship, only last when it is good, but when it is bad or things get bad, then it simply fades away. Having gone through some experiences I've come to think that friends are not real. Some people can be friends when they want to and simply withdraw when it's too tough.One friend always came to me talking about the same problem many times, I try to help him as best as I can, sometimes it just can be annoying when he seems doesnt wanna listen, but hey, they maybe just wanna be listened to and that's it, that's all that I could give to him,listening to him.Cause when someone comes to you to talk about their problem, it means whether u like it or not, he/she lays his/her trust on you for that moment and u just simply lend your ears and perhaps your heart as well. This is just one example, I've just seen worse cases where some friends bailed out when they see their friends is having a tough time, they could've helped but they are so bloody selfish and self-centered that they miss it and simply ignore. And yet they declared best friends forever before. On the other hand, I've also seen some cases where these people are not even friends, few of them are even strangers but they can touch each other's hearts in a nick of time. I guess what I am trying to say here is that the title "Friends" don't belong to the physical state but more to the state of mind as Friends are not real, it's only state of mind or the deeds its self.

FRIENDSHIP VS FRIENDSHIT ~
In one fine night, I was hanging out with my two good friends, Chattering from nonsense to the what-makes-sense.One of them, just call Maria, said " We hardly hang out with Jane again since she got married and have had a baby now. We seems far away now and we hardly talk to each other anymore about things..." (F.Y.I: Maria, Jane and the other girl, Diane were working in the same office). There it was, some of the remarks about Jane from Maria, which I concluded that they’re not that close anymore since Jane got married and had a baby whilst Maria and Diane are single. I was struck by Maria's comment. She was saying that she's not close to Jane anymore just because Jane's now married and had a baby. Then I related it to Jane's story long way before, saying that Maria had changed somehow, Maria kinda stopped being good friends anymore with Jane right after Jane got married. As I see it,the changes happened to both; To Jane who's simply got married and To Maria who's simply either consciously/subconsciously reacted to that. Regardless any particular reason that was for Maria, still I ponder if one can be still good friend to another though he/she has passed a phase to a different phase in his/her life.
It’s kind of bizarre if you take a really deep look at it. Ideally good friends are remain good friends no matter what but then unfortunately these days in this world there's no such thing as 'No-matter-What" anymore. We live in day-to-day choices mostly depending on what comfort us and if that’s gonna bring us good or not, it surely makes sense but when it comes to a friendship, shouldn’t we think beyond that? If one friend has gone to a different phase that creates the unwanted gap to the other friends, do they have to stop being good friends?. Shouldn’t they make efforts to understand and accept the changes and remain good friends?
Sadly, most people live in the “similar-Interest-World”. When the interest including situation and condition aren’t the same anymore then one would leave looking for the people who has similar interest or in the similar situation and condition. Differences seem set them apart and they hardly make efforts to bridge it. We all would pass different stages in life, we all gradually change from time to time, different state of mind and phases. And even after going through all that and you still can see few familiar faces along the way being loyal with your friendship regardless changes happened, GOOD FRIENDS they are indeed and the FRIENDSHIP you had definitely remain FRIENDSHIP and doesn’t have to turn out to be a friendshit.
Inspired by one of my best friend's true story