I Had This Simple Wish

I had this simple wish…..
A wish that I have thought these last days.
A wish that came up when we got this bed.

A very simple wish that turned into a very simple plan…
A simple plan that excites me in the middle of my hidden anxieties & worries.
A plan to make my little girl a play room.
A very nice play room.
With my hand-sewed curtain that is made from a nice & funny fabric that I was going to buy at this market.
With the same fabric, I was going to make a cover-table to cover up the ‘not-so-nice’ plastic box in her room and it’ll become her small table for her to put things.
I was also going to make a cover for her cupboard & put the little brown desk lamp on top of it.
I’m going to buy this pink Winnie the Pooh sticker and make a nice line on the right side wall.
Her colorful carpet will be arranged on the wooden floor.
And I’ll put her dolls & toys on the bed that I’ve cover up nicely with a new funny sheet that I just bought.
I couldn’t wait to see her excitement to play in her own play room.
She only has a play box, where all her toys are put into.
Wouldn’t be great if she can have a play room instead of a play box?

So, that’s my very simple plan that excites me these last days.
But I have to let go that simple plan.
Because I can’t get the bed for my little girl’s play room.
Maybe later, my baby… I will make a very nice play room for you. Maybe later….

Everybody Hated Me

Iya, bener everybody hated me. Hehehehe... bukannya gue sejenis orang parnoan yang ngerasa dibenci semua orang. Tapi berdasarkan survey (ciaelah), setiap orang yang baru pertama kali kenalan ama gue, pasti sebel, karena berdasarkan tampang, muke gue itu judes & blaguk (Coba aja telaah dari foto narsis gue di atas ini).
Idih, padahal yaa... gue itu orang yang amat sangat ramah, tidak sombong dan jarang marah :).

Simak aja kutipan2 temen2 gue di bawah ini.
1. Martha (one of my best friends): "Pertama kali gue ngeliat lo, pengen gue gampar." (anjrit, serem banget...)
2. Arintha (friend & ex AE): "Waktu gue diinterview ama lo, gue lumayan takut karena muka lo galak banget."
3. Asta (BE), dr testimonial friendster: "Emak yang satu ini pertama kali ngeliat jutek bennneerrr..."
4. Rini & Ukiet (BE & Sr. BE): "Waktu lo presentasi pertama kali, muke lo nyebelin bangets."
5. Derry Gautama (Sr. AD): "Wueleeehh... lo itu ya, belaguk banget. Udah salamannya gak mau genggem kenceng, judes bgt lg. Udah ketemu yang kedua kali, tetep aja muka lo nyebelin."
6. LV (one of my best friends): "Waktu pertama gue ketemu lo, gue pikir pembantu dari mana nih jadi AE." (ahh... ini sih komentar kesirikan LV aja ama kekecean gue, yang sebenernya gak relevan ama topik gue kali ini) --> tapi kenapa juga gue taro kutipannya?

Dan masih banyak komen2 lainnya. Yang pasti, kalo misalnya meeting pertama kalinya dgn 3rd party, keliatan-lah kalo ekspresi mrk antara lain: takut, sebel, bales ngejudesin, dingin dll.

Padahal, perasaan gue, gue udah berusaha ramah lhoo... tapi kenapa tetep aja impresi yang keluar adalah nyebelin, judes & galak.
Secara muka, mulut gue itu, daya kelenturannya emang agak terbatas, alias berukuran kecil. Jadi gue tu emang gak bisa nyengir maksimal & kalo (perasaan gue udah senyum) tapi secara kasat mata, ternyata gak keliatan kl gue itu tersenyum. Akibatnya, gue keliatannya males senyum ato tertawa ramah. Trus ujung luar mata gue agak naek ke atas dan alis gue (yang 1/2 palsu ini) emang suka gue gambar membentuk alis marah (salah sendiri kl ini). Ditambah satu lagi, tanpa sadar, gue sering mengenyitkan kening. Jadi akhirnya secara overall akibat template muka gue yang kayak gt, keluarlah impresi2 itu... hehe...

Bukannya menyesali pemberian Tuhan yaa, cuma I wish mulut gue bisa ketawa & tersenyum lebih lebar. Jadi kesan2 1st impression itu bisa agak kurang. Bukannya apa2, kadang2 ada orang2 (karena udah dari awalnya gak simpati ama gue), jd mempersulit gue dalam bbrp hal, krn mrk jg gak punya kesempatan to get to know me further, pokonya mrk ber-act berdasarkan 1st impression itu.

Eniwei, gimana menurut lo2? impresi pertama lo2 pada waktu ketemu gue gmn? Trus kira2 ada trik make up yang bisa mengkoreksi kejudesan muka gue ini gak yaa? :)